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Afraid

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I kept holding back,
From standing under that doorway,
Because I was afraid...
Afraid of ruining something good in my life,
And afraid of rejection.

I have a piece of what hung from the door frame,
Will I use it?
Will I put it on a shelf, never to be used?
Will I carry it around until my courage becomes stronger than my fear?
Or will I throw it out because I am afraid of what it could cause?

I was so afraid of getting my heart torn apart again,
I stopped doing something I had started,
Putting myself in a shell,
Reluctant to come out,
And hating myself for retreating there in the first place.

Why is it so hard to open up my heart?
Is it because of what I am afraid of?
Or is it because I may have forgotten how to open the door?

To all those questions,
I have no answers.
this came to me today after... something. I wrote this while watching Horton Hears a Who and after. I put the finishing touches on it just a moment or so ago, and here it is: me unmasked for the world to see. it's been ages since I wrote poetry like this... someone has moved me this deeply that isn't family, everyone say 'wow' >>;
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sakurablossom17's avatar
I'm happy for you mommy :D